Is it the darkness of the night,
or your cascading hair that dims my sight?
Melody of the breeze passing by,
Or is it you calling me with a sigh?
Is it the stars that twinkle awhile,
Or parting your lips when you smile?
Is it the moon afloat in clouds’ grail,
Or gazed you coyly lifting your veil?
It happened one night for a moment divine,
All were you, and you mine.
Sometimes, I have vainly tried to understand my own self -
What makes me laugh; what brings tear to my eyes? What do I cherish; what from my memory dies? What am I scared of; what gives me the strength to challenge fear itself? What I spend hours to find; why certain things do not even cross my mind?
I vainly tried to understand these and many more..
Sometimes, I have searched for right words to say -
Should I ask forgiveness for my faults; should I erase it all from my thoughts? Should I let you know it hurts to say goodbye; should I let you read them all in my eyes? Should I tell you what I think of you; should I wait in hope that you’ll feel it too?
I searched for right words at times like these and more..
Sometimes I took a step ahead; sometimes I turned my back.
Sometimes I thought I knew too much; sometimes I mused on what I lack.
Sometimes I searched the unknown; sometimes I took solace in humdrum.
Sometimes I did not know what to do; and then I unravelled puzzles some.
Sometimes I won; sometimes I failed,
Sometimes I sunk; sometimes I sailed,
Sometimes I left the world behind,
In search of myself, whom I seek to find.
No word you heard,
Silence fills
My eyes.
Tears drop I stop,
what is that stills
my sighs?
My heart a dart
Has wounded
As you go,
A scar to mar
And I bled
Hoping though.
A hope to grope
Day will come
when you,
caress my face
and joy some
will be new.
I wish thou could hear me, O god,
Miles in search of thee have I trod,
Calling, an echo so pale I hear
Of my own voice, an’ a lingering fear.
A fear that in this world alone
I am, thou art, alas, but stone,
Who heareth not the prayers of mine
within the walls of thy solemn shrine.
Hear me lord, hear I beseech,
In thy arms embrace me, reach,
Fill this heart with hope so pure
bless me strength divine to endure.
If unheard still, at thy doorsteps I shall be,
No cause of mine, just for love of thee.
The time is here an’ I think, O why
Must part our ways, you and I?
An’ what words in goodbye shall we say
To mark the memory of this day?
To mark all days of joy and fun,
An’ sad too, we faced as one,
One more time let’s join and pray,
to mark the glory of this day.
Let’s pray, that though our ways part,
Your memory never leaves my heart,
We meet again in new days to unfold
and laugh together like the days of old.
